as the wheel turns: my losing streak is done

the wheel turns... what does that even mean? i did some quick online google-searching, and found out that the original saying has to do with something very much like the modern-day, commonly accepted concept of karma-- or "what goes around comes around." the saying the wheel turns has to do with punishment, meaning that the bad things in life happen to you for a reason. it's tied to the religious belief that all people inherently suck. haha, just kidding. (kind of?)

anyway, that's not how i see it. for me, the wheel turns means simply that your time will come. that life is up, and life is down but when you're at the bottom have faith that on the next turn you'll catch a ride on up.




and as we all know from the doorknob in alice in wonderland one good turn does deserve another.





but i think that the prospect of ending up at the bottom again is what makes being at the top so worth it. enjoy it while you can, because it won't always be like this. don't take it for granted. enjoy it. you won't always be young, you might not always be free and beautiful and happy. bad things might happen. bad things might be happening now. but enjoy the things that you do have. enjoy your imagination, your propensity for belief in the inherent goodness of people, enjoy the people around you, who make you laugh.

because everybody needs somebody sometimes

that was my goal for the summer, and although it's by no means over, i think i'm doing a fairly good job.

which brings me to my long-awaited, much-needed post about camping.

[although interlude for my thursday night jail/bail experience. things i learned? cops can arrest you for whatever they want. they can hold you for some period of time for no reason at all, bail amounts for doing nothing are slightly ridiculous and my roommate is pretty hardcore considering if it had been me i would have broken down and sat in a corner and cried or something.]

but we made it through that night, and suddenly i was floating...

and even recalling the experience a week and a half later feels like trying to recall a dream after you've shaken the groggy sleepiness, gotten up, dressed, and on with your day. beautiful, but gosh, could that have been real?

you'd think getting really, really sick would have helped bring me back to reality. but for once in my life, it seems like i can only remember the good parts of camping, and all the bad parts just fade away, like maybe they were the real dream. i feel like it was my sneak-peek at paradise, so i would remember that if only i keep going, someday i'll be there, for real. and in all honesty, it worked.

now if only i could believe that all the time.

attractive people, mostly because it was fun to "research"

so just for kicks, and because it's about that time (and because we were discussing it at work) i decided that i wanted this blog to be about beauty. and what better way to discuss beauty than with (that's right, you guessed it) a list of the celebrities/actors/writers/singers/etc. that I find most attractive?

this may or may not have something to do with my growing addiction to those stupid top 40 countdowns on VH1...

so anyway, here goes: [although in no particular order]

ewan mcgregor:

i've been secretly in love with ewan mcgregor since moulin rouge. how could anyone disagree?


plus, who doesn't love a man in a kilt?

angelina jolie: okay, so angelina jolie tends to annoy the hell out of me. but even i can't deny that there is something about her that just exudes sensuality. it's like she can't even help it.



kiera knightley: i must say, i have a woman-crush on keira knightley. i think she's absolutely beautiful, in that sort of adorable quirky little way.

of course, sometimes i just want to give her a sandwich... yikes.

zachary quinto: okay okay, anyone who knows me know that as a result of the new star trek movie im officially in love with spock. but no, it's just zachary quinto... look at this man.


rupert grint:

give me ron weasley over harry potter ANY day

boris kodjoe:

'nuff said

brandon flowers: (because nothing is more attractive than the killers' singer....)

except... (you guessed it)

brandon flowers with eyeliner:

okay, so maybe i have a problem. but i think guys in eyeliner are oddly attractive.

alan rickman:
why? because he's freaking 63 and still looks pretty adorable, in that out of touch, lost, old guy sort of way. yeah, apparently im a sucker for that?

jonathan rhys myers: do you have to ask why? he's irish, first of all. second of all, he has green eyes and dark hair. third of all, he has this intense gaze that just throws you off-guard.... yeah, through the television screen.
and while we're talking about those hot, intense gazes....
john mayer: a hottie who can sing too? and write his own music? how could you NOT fall in love?

not to mention his whole free-spirit i can't be tied down thing he has going on...

sorry jennifer aniston. :(

freida pinto: this woman is just gorgeous. plain and simple. you want to hate her for being so gorgeous but you can't. slumdog millionaire was a good movie because she was in it. i'm serious.
craig from degrassi (also known as jake epstein): okay, i cant help it. the troubled, intense, emo kid with pretty eyes? that's all i need...

chris pine: because what can i say? boy is fiiiinneee. as im sure half of the population of the world would agree.
kerry washington: i've always thought she looked so clean and fresh and natural and beautiful. but then i saw her in common's i want you video, and she won my heart. move over, alicia keys. kerry washington is in the building.
leonardo nam: random attractive asian kid in the sisterhood of the traveling pants movies.
eva langoria:for the longest time i was convinced she was the most beautiful woman in all the world. then i saw the tabloid pictures of her without makeup... can you say nightmares?
however, with makeup on and face fully intact, eva langoria is absolutely one of the most attractive women in the world.


keri hilson: so in the knock you down video, she's gorgeous. google her, and not so much. but she gets the vote because i love her pants in this picture. lol
penn badgley: intense gaze? check. tall, dark and handsome? check, check, check.
leighton meester: ive always been jealous of her. she's so beautiful, although she's another actress who could stand to put on a couple pounds.
chace crawfordi'm beginning to become convinced that the cast of gossip girl was chosen entirely based on how freaking gorgeous they are.

scarlett johansson

need i say more, really?

will smith: so i think that i'm really more attracted to his personality more than anything, but i must say that as will smith's acting career has evolved.... so has his body. yumm.
leonardo dicaprio....because i HAD to. i've had a crush on this boy since before i was old enough to have crushes on boys.

AND last, but [most certainly] not least.....

michael cera. why? because he's the ultimate, most adorable, nerdy boy ever. and i like nerdy boys. it's a condition. i'm admitting it. deal with it. and i'd like to echo leslie simon here when i say that i'm determined to stalk him until he marries me-- or he's forced to get a restraining order. whichever happens first.